Dear Readers
What follows is a transcript of a live, spoken group transmission recorded at an event in 2013. So much has unfolded since that day it seems a lifetime away, and yet what we find with the transmissions is the teachings within continue to unpack over time, like Russian nesting dolls; each is revealed as the previous one deconstructs.
Where is you joy, your permission hiding? What is your day to day state, and how open is your heart? Are you connected to your creative power in a time when each one of us is asked to discover a new depth of understanding about our place, our purpose in the world?
Please comment with any questions and responses. I would LOVE to hear from you.
Transmission:
“There is a reason for sexuality, a reason that far surpasses most understanding that exists on the planet today. In a way it is so much more simple than so many understand. And in a way it is much more vast than any of your teachings have touched upon. Until now.
We live at the day of dawning, beginning of a new time. Those of you who have chosen to incarnate in physical form at this time are so blessed. You are honoured to be present. You are brave to be present. And you are welcomed and there is great gratitude for your courage. Those who are in physical form and those who are in non-physical form are working together in a great union. A union that grows every day.
There is so much desire for your joy and for your awareness to begin, that there is no need for the level of suffering that you experience. That suffering is malleable... It is dust, it is easy. But your fear of it is not. And part of the reason for the gift of sexuality and the challenge that you face with your sexual natures at this time is because of the placement of the energy where it lies within the body in physical form. And we focus on humankind because of course you have the gift of consciousness. And tonight we address how you may make use of your consciousness to shift the experiences that you have with your sexual nature and with the power from glorious energy that exists all over the planet fuelled by sexual love and desire.
The chakra system is one that reflects expressions of energy in physical form. It is a beautiful design and it is very accurately conceived to demonstrate how our bodies manifest the vibration of particular energies in different ways, in different places within that physical form. The first and second chakras are extremely close. They cuddle together, they live in the sacred, secret place, protected by the pubic bone, cradled between the legs, beneath the skirts, within the pants, under the diaper. Always protected, always a subject of fascination and/or modesty.
Our first chakra, the system of elimination, by which we release the unwanted toxins from the body, is where our survival fears live. It is where we are connected with the earth. We walk with our feet, but we feel with our bottoms. It is the base of the skeletal system, the spine and the root that holds us in our bodies. It is possible to be so out of body that our feet barely touch the ground. And yet it is not the job of our feet to connect us, it is the job of the first chakra to bring us down to earth and to keep us here. And to say ‘Yes, we’re in physical form’ and yes, physical form can be coarse and brutish and unattractive and painful and dark, it decays, it betrays us, it hurts us... and eventually it leaves us. It is a gift that does not last. For from the moment we are born we begin to die. There is a reason that the second chakra, the heart of our sexual desire live so close to this place. And it is because our purpose here, on this earth is not suffering, it is not to conquer suffering, it is not to alleviate suffering... It is to be in joy.”
“The experience of being in human form and discovering divine sexual union with another is an experience of divine bliss. There is no greater bliss state available to the vast majority of people that are alive on the planet today. Even those great yogis and yoginis, even the ones who have spent years on meditation... There is a piece they miss when they sever themselves from the physical experience of allowing the pleasure centres in their body to awaken and to express. Without the allowance of this joy in our lives it is very, very difficult to find a reason to remain alive. And so our sexual energy is not simply an aspect of procreation, it is an aspect of co-creation, of our willingness to be on the planet at all. It is part of the bargain, when we say ‘We wish to be here, we wish to embody’.
We do this with the understanding the pleasure is our birth right. And it is. There is no reason in existence for this to be denied other than fear. And so when we look at the thousands and thousands of ways that sexuality is denied on the planet we must understand and accept that we are looking at the thousands and thousands of faces of fear. And what we are afraid of is beauty, delight, pleasure, joy and permission to feel all of this, to experience all of this, to recognize that this is in fact our true nature. Nothing less.
And so how can an expression of passionate, powerful, divine joy not be threatened? In fact it must be the most scary experience we can have, because it feels too good to be true. Some of the ways that this fear is expressed fall into a simple category of denial and repression. It is an understandable response when we don’t believe that joy is our birth right, and when we experience it spontaneously in the body as all children do.
All children are sexual. They feel their sexuality from the moment they are born. But when there is a belief system and a history that is carried forward on the cellular level that is fear based around the deserving of joy, and from the very early expressions of the sensations there is an immediate response that this must stop, this is unsafe. It’s not just unsafe – it is dangerous. It holds the danger unlike any other danger that can be found. And when there is a history of this level of fear carried forward on the soul level, the fear of sexuality, the fear of pleasure, the fear of opening and awakening is greater than the fear of death. It’s greater than the fear of hunger and survival. It’s greater than the fear of being alone. And so it overrides all of these other fears.
And when this impulse for repression exists it will blanket at all aspects of life, because the fear of joy is so great. So in this case we witness this in cultures where there is a masculinization of this fear, because those in male physical form have carried physical strength. They are beings of action. They are beings of movement. And when they experience the depth of this terrible danger, the pleasure must be controlled. And it is controlled in the self through religious practices, and it is controlled in the other by the denial of all feminine energy. And thus we have powerful imbalances that are found in some of the most ancient cultures on the planet. Because this fear has been nurtured and re-birthed so many times.
Please understand this is not a fear that is owned by men and imposed upon women. This could not be further from the truth. It is difficult to understand when we observe a level of brutality that is enacted upon those who’ve embodied in the feminine form, as still exists in so many places today. It is very difficult to watch this happening and not be forced into a stand of accusation to those who play the role of the oppressor. But it is a fundamental universal law that we are utterly connected in our bodies, in our energetic exchanges. We are absolutely One, and for every oppressor there is a victim, and for every victim there is a prosecutor. And there is no possible healing of the one without healing the all. This is not an easy concept to understand, it’s very difficult to absorb because there is such a long history of victimization, particularly in the war between the genders, in the war that has been acted out in the arena of sexuality.”
“It is not uncommon for torture to be focused on the genitals, because this is the ultimate expression of fear of pleasure to create pain, where pleasure has been given as a birth right. There are those who hold sexual practices that are focused upon pain. And this is not because they enjoy pain, it is because this is the only aspect of pleasure that they can now allow themselves because the fear of pleasure is so great. It is awakening a numbness. Pain is better than numbness. And numbness is an epidemic on the planet today. Our numbness to our sexuality is a reflection of a very, very deeply buried fear. It is a fear that is on a level of unconsciousness. Cannot be seen. Cannot be welcomed. Yet.
And so for those who are experiencing an inability to allow their beauty and their joy, if there is an expression of emotional pain, this must be expressed. This must be set free, because with the release of the closed heart, the numbness can begin to lift. First numbness rises, then pain is revealed, then pain mends and then pleasure is allowed. Delight is allowed. Bliss is allowed. And so as we begin to correct the immense levels of suffering that exist in the betrayal of our sexuality, women must realize that they hold their own power, they hold their own joy, and that it is in this awakening that those men who run from them in fear will stop and turn and see another way.
The women must not wait for the men. The women must not be afraid of the men. And the feminine must be given voice in both those in female body and those in male body. It is a wave of impulse that is moving across the planet right now. It is in everyone present in this room. And by feminine above all we speak of the receptive nature of our sensual, sexual, creative selves. When we receive, we do not push, we do not force, we do not commend and we do not control. We allow, we gratefully, joyfully allow. And this is the most powerful form of creation that exists. In the truth it is the only one form of creation that exists. A woman does not force a baby out of her womb. She surrenders to a process that is much greater than her conscious mind. And this is the energy that is sweeping a planet. It is in each one of us and it is showering down upon us tonight in the waves of the moon.”
“We will experience these energies differently if we are in female body or if we are in male body, but the essence is the same. And it is important to understand what this will feel like, what this can feel like inside each one of you. To awaken to the feminine can mean an acting out of what we consider to be traditional feminine experiences. It can mean allowing beautiful things, feminine expressions, beautiful ways of wearing the hair, a way of walking, softness in the voice, and allowance of the voluptuous nature of the feminine form. It can mean these things and it often does mean these things because this is the way in according to our belief systems and our cultural nuances. But it does not have to mean this. What is more important is to awaken the feminine and allow the feminine energy in and to a particularly allow it in between our legs. It means to receive. It means to deserve. It means to welcome. It means to stop pushing away what we really want. And it means to surrender to the fact that the very things that we need and want the most exist for us right now and that any resistance, any distance we create between them is in our own power to correct through the act of surrender.
We often associate the word ‘surrender’ with sexuality and this is because to achieve our divine connection, our divine sexual connection we must surrender. We do not manipulate and we do not apply divine sexual energy, we surrender to it. It comes through us. It moves us in ways that we know nothing about until it happens to us. And so this aspect of the feminine is what lives in every woman and man. And this is greatly mistaken upon the planet. It is a great confusion. And there is a beautiful attempt to express it as we witness so much confusion among genders. We witness men who struggle so deeply with understanding what it means to be masculine because they are feeling so strongly the desire to allow their feminine natures as well. And the truth of the matter is that when a profound feminine energy enters a man he becomes more masculine if he is in masculine body now. It is his willingness to surrender to his true nature and his receptivity that allows him to rise up, it allows his phallus to rise up, it allows his heart to open and it allows him to stand with both feet firmly planted on the ground. And he does not need anything, any permission to find this, because it is within himself. He does not need a woman to behave in a certain way or to look a certain way to discover it within himself. It is there for his own access, his own allowing in the act of surrender. “
“For a woman, virtually every woman who is embodied in feminine form, is walking with a history of victimization, this is the most appropriate word. And yes, she has earned this, she has lived it, she has known it and it has been real. But we are in a time now of liberation from this. And it is impossible, it is universal law, it is impossible to actualize, to stand in your power, to embrace your bliss and your joy if you are walking the role of one who is or has been a victim. If this is still in your heart, you cannot be who you are. And even more, you cannot give to others. And any attempts to give to others will come out of your own place of need.
So this must be addressed, and so when a woman welcomes the energies of the moon, when she feels this electricity entering her body, again it is a permission and surrender to receiving. She is enough. She is enough. She is beautiful in here essence, in her core. She does not have to look after anyone, she does not have to give anything to anyone, she does not have to wear something, she does not have to get down on her hands and knees. She does not have to cover herself up, she does not have to strip her clothes off. She does not have to do anything, because it is in her inner stillness that she will discover, that she will find a permission to receive.”
“And when she lights that fire, everything around her will respond. She will be radiant and in her radiance there is no man that can resist her, and no woman either. There is no experience that will be turned away. There is no danger because she is complete within herself. And she will be attuned to her own intuitive nature, because our intuitive selves are also our feminine selves.
And so picture now: we have a man embodied in masculine form, we have a woman embodied in feminine form, and they are in union. And they meet. Visualize them both simultaneously in surrender to their divine natures. See them without victimization, without desperation, without a need to control, without a need of any kind. Because they have everything within them. See, with your mind’s eye, see how they vibrate, how they glow, and feel that energy and that connectivity. Because that is true sexuality. It is pure. It is a pure, hot, white light. It is not red, it is not black. It is not fishnet stockings and garters. So many of these associations that we have with sexual arousal are simply aspects of fear and repression. Because when we push something away, it becomes forbidden and it takes on whole new face as of course we want the most what it seems we cannot have. That is our experience of the greatest polarization. These two beings of light in their union... And their union can be anything, it need not be coitus, their union can be a simple transfers of energy, can be a looping of energy that travels from root to crown and back. And that level of beauty can heal every illness, every heartbreak, every loss, every war.”
“Our journey toward accessing this level of understanding must begin with the depth of honesty about where we are now. It begins within ourselves, with the willingness to look deeply at our own fears, to identify them, to name them, and to express them. To paint them, sing them, to shout them, to share them, to write them, to find whatever means we can, to dance them. Because it is through expression that they are set free. And through expression that they come to be recognized. And as we share these experiences, we take the power away. Fear only holds power over us, when we let it, when we see it as such. And when we laugh in its face it must go. And then we are left with our essence, our essential selves.
It is also this expression that will begin to make the planetary shifts more visible. And so for those of you, who have the ability to share what you know, to share what you feel, to share in humility your humanity, if you have this, please do. I promise you there is someone waiting to hear what you have to say. When they hear it, it will help them find their own courage. If one woman goes home and writes the truth of her fears, about her willingness to allow joy and pleasure into her life, if she writes those down, that will send out the vibration, that will touch women, who lie in prisons in Afghanistan, Iran, Mexico, North Korea, and, and, and...We are one. You are one.
We touched briefly upon the polarity of religious fundamentalism in extremism. The other polarity is something extremely common in the West, which is a pseudo sexual expression, and for those who live in the West, we describe it as West, but of course it is spreading around the world. For those who live in a culture that is touched by modern technology, you are touched by this falseness, it is impossible to avoid. And again the answer is awareness, the answer is truth. Sexuality in its pure form has very little to do with material expression.
When we awaken, this energy transforms the physical. The physical becomes beauty. Not the other way around. And so please walk with awareness of the many, many ways that denial and fear ask us to judge ourselves, to deny ourselves and to limit our allowing of our divine right for joyful expression and central surrender. Sexuality begins from birth and it ends at death. And it is physical expression. And at the point of leaving the physical form it rises into an energetic expression. There is no counterpart to physical sexuality in the non-physical, because sexuality is divine, non-physical energy brought into the physical. It is here to give us a reminder everyday of our divine natures. And when we sever it from our lives we cannot help but sever our divinity and our blessings.
In your search for the middle ground, for the place of truth, know that it lives within your divine, felt spiritual essence. Whenever you are in doubt, whenever you are in confusion, whenever you do not know how to be in relationship, in your physical form, in your manner of dress, in your sexual experiences, come back to the heart, come back to the body, come back to the pure beauty that lives in your essence... And start from that place.
In that honouring we will greatly assist your confusion to lift. We will allow you to reconnect, and if all possible, do this with your partner, do this with a partner. Because sexual and sensual expression that is rooted in your divine nature is always a blessing, it is always an opening and it is a powerful antidote to the separation and loneliness and heartache that is so much a part of the lives of the many today.”
Resources:
Healing the Primary Sexual Wound VIDEO and INFO PAGE.