SOURCES OF FEAR

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Each individual
holds as many sources of fear
as a tree bears leaves
and in each leaf
must rise the brilliant colour
of its death before it falls
and before it crumbles into the Earth
preparing for new growth
to be found

We offer these
as possible places of resistance
which may be shared:

Fear of failure:
What if I try
what if I dare to show myself
and my dreams
to define myself
as one who believes
in these possibilities
and then
when the dream fails
I am exposed
in my foolishness
this hidden aspect
of me?

Fear of loss of control:
What if I become lost
in the direction chosen by others
and my voice
is no longer heard
and then I am forced
to be a part of something
that reveals my deeper fear
that I am not safe
that I am not loved
at all?

Fear of exposure:
What if
in my attempt to be honest
I reveal too much
and instead of admiration
for my courage
I receive judgement
about the truth
of the shadows
I hold inside?

Fear of loss:
What if
I am not good enough after all
and something I say or do
casts me out
takes me from this place
where I seek love
and acceptance
for all that I am?

Fear of loss of faith:
What if
I cannot do it?
What if I try
and we all try
and then
we are proven wrong
in our dreams
and this daring
to step out and say
I have an answer
will collapse upon us
and we will be revealed
as false dreamers after all?

Fear of self-blame:
What if
I am asked to re-evaluate
my perspective of my Self
to see that what I thought was self-love
is in fact
a bravado that covers up
deep fears of inadequacy
so deep
that I have not yet named them
not to my friends
and not
to myself?

And yet here lies
the greatest gift
that the whole of you
can offer to each of you
and it is a depth of Love
that is such honesty
the kind that begins in knowing
that there are no exceptions
to the policy of self-responsibility
and so no truths need be hidden
no topics off limits
and no love can be lost
for it is infinite and unconditional
and so we are forgiven
even though
there is nothing
to forgive

Try this
and speak today
of any attempts to control
the outcome
of your vision
and how instead
you might surrender
to the power of Trust

This is the nature of growth
but remember
that the man who first speaks the words
I am afraid
is all the wiser
when it becomes his turn
to say
and this is what
I dream

You are indeed among the chosen
but it is when you become
even more aware
of the vast power
of your inner choices
that you will set
all victims free

The only thing
that ever stands in your way
is your own fear
for are you not
the Love
of which you dream?
Be brave
and braver still
for your hearts will travel
to the ends of the Earth
with every inward truth
they dare at last
to see

~ excerpt A New Humility

"I am struck by Adi's presence during her readings, her words coming so clearly, precisely, and with beauty, even. I feel the power behind her words, and intuitively trust that she is receiving powerful guidance. She also possesses such a genuinely loving heart, truly caring about your experience. I am grateful that she has chosen to embrace her deepest gifts, as it is helping & inspiring me to do the same."

much love,
Adi