A Fear of Being

On the Question of Incarnation into the Wrong Body

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Dear Reader;

The following transmission was received in response to the idea of incarnation into the wrong body.

Discomforts of incarnation are not unique to matters of sexuality. It is not uncommon for individuals to feel they have incarnated into the wrong family, or even to question if they were meant to be born at all.

In my work we reference “Starborn” beings, who are highly sensitive and often struggle with the dense energy of this three dimensional realm. I would place myself in this category and often joke that I have spent my whole life studying humans and trying to learn how to become one. I often get it wrong.

When my own son, a classic Starborn, was very young, he once told me when he went to sleep that he wished he could just “go home” and not wake up in human body again in the morning. This is not suicide ideation but rather a genuine expression of feeling misplaced on planet Earth. It’s not an easy or happy way to feel.

The actual causes of gender dysphoria seem to remain a mystery, as rather than delving into the reasons why, we seem to be caught in a contagion of identity wherein the focus is entirely upon affirmation and inclusion, rather than asking some very important questions about what is truly going on within.

The rising tide of confusion around gender identity is a growing concern for anyone watchful of abuses which involve children. It’s a highly charged topic, founded to some extent on the idea that it is possible for a boy to be born in a girl’s body, or vice versa. This means that what defines gender is determined by what an individual “feels”, and that this feeling can change on any given day. It’s worth noting that the idea that a biological man can actually become a woman is very current phenomenon and has not been a feature of gender dysphoria until recent years.

This supposition has been answered by medical science with the suggestion that it is possible to pharmaceutically and surgically change genders, and that sex is not a biological matter. The question of intersex individuals is often raised as a case in point, however this phenomenon, while worthy of care and understanding, is extremely rare. Of most grave concern are the astronomically escalating numbers of children being led through a fast-tracked medical funnel of irreversible and horrific procedures which include very severe side effects, infertility and loss of sexual function.

There are many questions to ask about this topic, but the first one must be to understand the idea of mistaken incarnation.

I offer this transmission with love and respect for all. To ask questions and be guided is a hallmark of human growth and reason.

A FEAR OF BEING

To begin to discover
the root of this question
we are asked to consider
the reason we have been born 
at all
Why are we born?
How are we born?
And what is the purpose 
within our sufferings
and confusions
for in this understanding
lies the answer 
to many questions
even before
they have been asked

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The human body 
is a vehicle 
perfectly designed to house
the soul 
The spirit lives
not simply within the body
but all around it
inhabiting form
beyond form
infusing life force
beyond the mechanics
of our material view

To understand life force
we must travel beyond it
and recognize that there is
no aspect of the human condition
which is without purpose
No element of the complex
interwoven elements of life
which is accidental

The idea of accident
is antithetical to divine purpose
for once we awaken to trust
we discover that we are alive
upon a stage of human theatre
and that every role we play
every costume we put on
every fellow actor
every tragedy and every scene
is chosen in a state of 
utterly mutual creation
for we are not pawns
in the hand of any god
but rather masters
of our own vision
authors
of our own world

To live without this understanding
is to live powerless
meaningless
and hopeless
it is
to separate our material manifestations
from the life force which 
imbues them with vitality and truth

A bird does not regret its lack
of fins
A fish does not suffer
in an absence of wings
The creatures of this world
are wise enough to trust
the expressions of their journey
And it is in this surrender
that freedom
and joy
are found

Even those souls born
with physical limitations
even those who experience injury
loss of limb or health
as they traverse their healing
even these brave ones
discover that to go toward
their challenges and grief
rather than to project
and pull away
this is the key to mastery

Indeed surrender 
is the foundation
of all expansions of Spirit
for all awareness lives
in the collapse of ego
in the deconstruction of our resistance
to the illusion of limitation
in our lives

Before we judge the mistakes
of Source
there are many questions 
to be asked

Who would you be
if not you?
Whom would you accept
if not yourself?
Who are you to say
Creator made a mistake?
How would you try to fix
what is already beautiful
and in its imperfections
already perfectly formed?

For when the idea arises
to become something
you are not
rather than seek
the impossible
it is time to ask
tell me more 
about this part of you
the hidden self
you would seek to reject

Why would you throw
this self away?

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What harm has
already been done
such that the soul
denies itself?
What is the name 
of this fear?
For it is only 
when this question
has been answered
that such confusions
may be truly made clear

Ask not 
how do we make a girl
into a boy
under the blade of Man
but rather why does a girl
fear to be herself
to claim the gift
given by Spirit
when first she agreed
to incarnation
when first she said
yes to Source
yes I will be born
and yes
this is who I am

For until this question
is answered
no truth will be found
and the arrogance and ignorance
of human games
will do harm
to frightened children
for no doctor
is the God
he imagines himself to be
just as
no incarnation was ever
in error
no matter how grave
the fear which arises
as we walk the life
we have chosen
For this is the very path
to the freedom of the spirit
our soul knows
to be the foundation
of life force energy 
brought into form

It is exactly through
our contrasts
and our discomforts
that we grow
Human embodiment
is the one miracle
that will never
and can never
be performed 
by any machine

Those who seek 
to disrespect
the act of the life force
claiming itself as matter
do so at the great peril
not only 
of the children
but of all human life
for if we deny a child
the birthright of their body
we deny Creation itself
and this 
is not the work
of any holy force
Be not mistaken
this is not the voice
of any true or loving god

Parents
healers
lawmakers
rise up in protection
of the Grace
of your children
for their innate sexual expression
is a profound gift
the greatest taste of human bliss 
they may know
as it leads them to the day
when they will bear children
of their own

Do not rob them
of this source 
of fundamental healing
Do not steal from them
this blessing
this joy

Teachers
priests
and shamans
offer your prayers
for a return to the permission
to honour
the pure seed of the child
just as we honour
the seed of an oak
and the seed of a rose
each born to blossom
in their own way
their own time
in their own chosen soil

The seed’s journey 
toward the sun
was never meant to be distorted
by the machinations of Man 
nor Machine
but held simply
firmly
in the hands of our Creator
under the winds and rains
of an earthly realm

Ask not
about a mistake of Spirit
but look to 
your own errors
Bring yourselves
into willingness
to see the darkness at play
and stand strong
in a knowing Light
No knife
no drug
will make the human form whole
Instead tell the truth
even to those
who would silence you
in the reflection
of their own shame
 

Ask the heart of each child 
to speak

Who are you afraid to be?
What are you afraid to be?
How are you afraid to live
and why?

And for the child 
who is too young to answer
ask these same questions of
the mothers and fathers
of the teachers and psychologists
of the politicians and journalists
ask of all the adults
who would mould such a child
through the lens
of their own fear

Once you dare to witness
the answers to these questions
let love be the solution
to all your mysteries
Allow the simplicity 
of a return to a divine
and sacred plan
the one which lives
beyond the stumblings
of the limited and material mind

Human birth
is both an honour
and a miracle 

We are asked
to receive this gift
however it is given
as unique
and perfect
as any rose

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Please do offer your thoughts and comments below. I share these writings as part of a conversation.

much love,
Adi