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Nobody is perfect, but that is normal. What we do with our body is often to try and make it more beautiful. We like to dress nicely and comb our hair, maybe put on some make-up or at least take a shower once in a while. We go to the gym and work out, or we take dancing classes to learn new skills. On all levels we are trying to improve. Maybe this tendency starts already at the moment of conception, when our unique cell was created. This cell then grows to become our self. This self thinks. We want to know who we are, because we want to know why we experience life the way it is. When you are happy, you may not feel a lot of anxiety, but when you are unhappy, it seems that there is darkness and you wonder how to get back to the light.

Some people never experienced a lot of love in their life. Or they had all the could imagine to have, but it was never enough. That essential element which would transform you into God, is missing. Why can I not get the respect I deserve? Maybe it is because... and that is where the hallucination starts. You can dream and you can create images in your mind, but with your body, you think in feelings. A feeling can be as detailed as another personality, like having me under your skin. What is it like to be me? What is it like to be in love? Being in love is like being one with someone. Even when they are gone, you can still feel them and this feeling is real.

I think that when a child loves its parents, the parents become part of the child. When a boy sees a girl, he might fall in love with her or he might identify with her. Some men apparently identify with women. I think that they may confuse a certain very primordial reflex with who they are. The reflex says, I am you. It is the baby being the mother. There is no real difference. The self as a unique and individuated element only gradually comes into existence. First the cell is in the womb. Then the baby drinks her milk. Then the child is part of the family and finaly, the adolescent begins to remember where it all started and must behave accordingly in order to let life flow on.

Not all individuals will get children. There is a natural selection taking place. People with a lot of fantasy might imagine themselves to be trans. Then they castrate themselves. I don't know why, but when society starts to castrate children in the name of compassion, then something is just as wrong as genital mutilation is in Africa. I think there is little more to say.

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“It is the baby being the mother...”

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